I'm getting married!! Finally.
I've been engaged since August 2012, and since I have a blatant disgust for weddings, I pretty much had no tolerance for planning one, until now.
Tim and I have decided to marry in Vegas at the Parisian-inspired Paris Hotel and Resort, have a low-key reception for the families at The Sugar Factory, then party all night like rock stars with our buds.
After that, we're going to clean up, pack it up, go home, and then go to real Paris. I am so excited for all this.
I am mostly excited about the 15-minute ceremony and the 2 1/2 hour reception. It's only painful for about 3 hours and then it's all done and we can go on with our married lives... in PARIS!!
So excited. So very, very excited.
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cheERFully_____impERFect
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ooooooo, fashion
Monday, February 10, 2014
Runway Season Survival
This was a hard season for me as a patternmaker. The design aesthetic developed at a pace pretty challenging to keep up with, since we squeezed the development of an entire full show season into only a couple weeks of preparation. We struggled to remain in control of our mostly dresses and soft woven line as more and more emphasis was placed on hard woven garments.
That said, this season has been viewed as a success by critics, and I really feel it has been a personal success, as well.
Here are some garments that I worked on:
These are just the ones I made and I enjoyed watching them walk down the Runway. There were plenty more which didn't make the final cut that I was really excited about making, too. I always feel a teeny tiny bit melancholy when I only have a couple pieces walking, but what can I do? Hopefully, I can continue to grow, learn more, and become more useful overall. I have the heart, I'm just waiting for the talent to develop more fully. Until then, though, I'll take pride in the accumulation of all my hard work, even if my labor only bears a small amount of fruit.
xo
That said, this season has been viewed as a success by critics, and I really feel it has been a personal success, as well.
Here are some garments that I worked on:
xo
Thursday, January 16, 2014
On the friends who refuse to forgive...
For a while I was angry at all of us- we all have the blood of our friendship on our hands.
Then, I pretended you were dead.
Then, I realized that's silly because you are very much alive and life is short. I reached out but never heard back.
Now, sometimes I catch myself wondering if I'm the dead one, really. I could be living cluelessly in a pretend-reality as part of an afterlife. I have my dream job, my work is challenging but personally rewarding (and one day it will be monetarily rewarding as well, I hope). I am engaged to a handsome, caring, intelligent man who really, really loves me. I have other, new friends who are a blast.
The surreal thing is that I can't share it with you. What if the fallout was part of some elaborate façade of this pretend life as a way of explaining why you aren't here? What if the reason we aren't speaking is that I'm the dead one and you're alive?
Then I think about all the Sallie Mae debt and I wonder, in all my death conspiracy, am I in hell?
But there are people in my life, gems and diamonds, who have been there for years, who have forgiven and also forgave, people who equally had the blood of friendship on their hands, who made amends, and how there's no death there.
And I realize, this forgiveness issue isn't mine. I wasn't so horrible in an isolated display of aggression. I was a human being losing it because she'd been pushed to a point. That person feels so different from who I am today. Through my forgiveness, I've grown, cleansed my soul, made peace with the equally inappropriate actions of myself and others.
Still, I pity those unable to forgive. It doesn't mean they are unchanged or unmoved, just that they move on with the blood of a lost friendship still on their hands.
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Oh hey, Men of the World. Take Note.
One day you may be lucky enough to meet the love of yor life. You'll want to spend every day with this person, and see them through the good times and bad.
One day, you'll both be getting ready for bed when she'll say to you in a shaky, terrified whisper, "There's a spider in the bed."
Take note: The correct response is to pick up the magazine that's been sitting on your dresser for a year and try to get the spider to crawl on it so you can take it outside and let it die of natural causes (because no one wants spider carcas on his/her freshly clean sheets). This is the right thing to do because your spouse has crippling arachnaphobia and the magazine is near your side of the bed. You will react promptly and sensitively. Aint no how spidey is crawling around yo woman tonight.
What you shouldn't do is mumble something nonchallantly without lifting your eyes off the facebook scroll on your phone, finish reading your friend's über mensch status and then look up to check out the situation. You should not be surprised when that spider gets away and disappears almost seemingly into thin air on your spouse's side of the bed. You should not then complain about having to wash the sheets immediately because your spouse finds evil lurking spiders to be unclean.
You should react with immediate gusto because the spider may appreciate the escape, but your spouse will never forget. And she'll live a lot longer than that spider.
Take note. Take note.
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Attack of the Cookies, Part II
A bright and colorful, deco-era building stood strong, as though it were an oasis amongst an industrial wasteland. The Lala Button factory was the only supplier of custom and designer-quality buttons in downtown Los Angeles. It was the oldest button establishment, dating back to the 1930's, family run, and absolutely cut throat in its competitive practices. So much so that, in 1996, when an Ebola outbreak contaminated the up-and-coming Fasten-Tech Industries, the competitor met ruin. Since the outbreak affected none outside the factory, whispered rumors of Lala's supposed involvement ran amok, without ever gaining proof or basis. It was the quietest, yet most impactful rumor to ever rock the Button Industry of downtown LA.
It was in this quaint-looking, artificial-sweetener colored environment, where Veda met the Cookie Ashat on her first day of work as a Product Development Associate. A recent graduate of FIDM with a degree in Toy Design, Veda was elated she would have the chance to gain experience in her field, even if it was somewhat outside the genre of employment she'd originally hoped for. She was creating, developing, manufacturing, compensated and grateful.
On her first day of work, an HR Rep guided her around the giant room where she would be working. She showed her how to use the office printer, which apparently required special codes that changed every three days, and introduced her to all her new co-workers, starting from the back of the room near the exit, one by one to the end of the room closest to the widows. The last coworker was located in a sectioned off area of the room, like an office whose walls were created by pushing together Ikea bookcases, with one bookcase missing to allow entry from the side, out of view of the rest of the office. The space was big enough to set comfortably, side by side, two large desks facing the window. In this cubby-area was an empty desk, soon to be Veda's, and at the occupied second desk was the first Cookie she'd been ever met.
Veda gasped when they'd walked through the entry and she saw the squat thing with its wavy blue hair shimmering in the sunlight streaming through the window. Ashat didn't stand to greet them, but eyed the smiling Veda wearily as the HR rep made the introductions and explained how they'd be partnering up and sharing the workload. As Veda sat at her desk for the first time, looking in the drawers at the files already there and checking out the system of organization, the alien sat munching on Skittles from a bowl sitting on the desk with a spoon. It was nearly impossible for Veda to mind the angst radiating from across the office because of her excitement.
She'd only ever seen the aliens on the news, and thought they'd seemed really adorable then. She'd thought the creatures resembled a short person who had merged with an Afghan Hound and then showered in Easter egg dye.
Veda, who thought of herself as shy, despite her colorful wardrobe, finally worked up the courage to start a conversation.
"You sure do love your Skittles."
Her first remark was met with icy silence. Ashat's left eye twitched as Veda continued.
"I'm more of a berry kind of girl. Raspberries and strawberries, and blueberries, et cetera. Nature's candy and all. "
Ashat raised an eyebrow, and Veda realized that her attempt at conversations may have made her come across as condescending.
"No judgement intended," she said, "Just my preference."
"I hate fruit," Ashat muttered. "I hate seeds, peels, juices... too messy. It's disgusting. This," holding up a skittles-filled soup spoon, "is cleaner, more dignifying to eat."
"Do all Cookies speak English so well?"
Ashat grunted before responding, "What did you think? That we wouldn't do research before approaching this planet? Earth had been releasing radio waves into space for a hundred years. We followed it like that children's game... what is it... connect the dots. Ah, it was easy. Your language is primitive, quaint, even. We liked some other languages better, but sensed the wars surrounding those areas would not make it an ideal spot to impose upon. California... a land of vegans living amongst slaughter houses. We chose the right land."
He was referring, of course, to a famous Los Angeles slaughterhouse, which was still operational but, coincidentally, the only surrounding restaurants within a 2-3 mile radius were either vegan or vegetarian - a coincidence noticed by the slaughterhouse workers or the bulk of the fashion industry which also occupied the same area. The reference went completely over Veda's head, being so new.
Not quite sure how to respond to that, she said, "Well, I'm very glad to have you here."
After a few moments she asked, "What do vegetarians and slaughterhouses have anything to do with Californians? I mean, those are everywhere."
Ashat looked at Veda condescendingly and spoke with disdain, "A society that kills the animals for eating but then doesn't eat the animals. The meat is shipped elsewhere. You are too peaceful to eat the animals, despite knowing how to kill them.You kill them for other people to eat, not for yourselves in the immediate area surrounding the killing. You are passive. Passive people are not harmful."
"Plenty of people eat meat in LA."
"Do you eat meat?"
"Actually, no."
Ashat waved his hand dismissively, "Nor me, and we'll get along fine."
Veda didn't follow the logic, figured something key was lost in translation and decided to change the subject. She gestured at the bookshelves, "Most of these are empty. What's the deal with them sectioning us off like this, I wonder?"
Ashat laughed, "Me. I was sick of being gawked at. Humans stare. It is very discomforting."
"Are you male or female?"
At that Ashat sat up very straight, abruptly and stared down Veda and spat, "You are rude to ask."
"I apologize! You're right, that was insensitive. I'm very sorry."
"Silence," Ashat hissed.
The next six hours were uncomfortably, shamefully silent. The southern sunlight drifted in, throwing painted-glass shadows on everything; filling Veda with conflicting emotions. She felt like a social failure, insulting her new coworker on the first day, but also like she'd won the lottery with the beauty of the place.
At the end of the day, as she stood to leave, Ashat spoke to her again. "How do you feel about spiders?"
"They terrify me."
Ashat squinted, "Do you kill them when you see them?"
Veda shook her head, "If I see one, I try to confine it without injuring it, and then I take it outside, find a place in the garden free of other webs, since they eat each other and all, and let it free."
"It," Ashat nodded as this answer was expected, "Fine, see you tomorrow."
It was in this quaint-looking, artificial-sweetener colored environment, where Veda met the Cookie Ashat on her first day of work as a Product Development Associate. A recent graduate of FIDM with a degree in Toy Design, Veda was elated she would have the chance to gain experience in her field, even if it was somewhat outside the genre of employment she'd originally hoped for. She was creating, developing, manufacturing, compensated and grateful.
On her first day of work, an HR Rep guided her around the giant room where she would be working. She showed her how to use the office printer, which apparently required special codes that changed every three days, and introduced her to all her new co-workers, starting from the back of the room near the exit, one by one to the end of the room closest to the widows. The last coworker was located in a sectioned off area of the room, like an office whose walls were created by pushing together Ikea bookcases, with one bookcase missing to allow entry from the side, out of view of the rest of the office. The space was big enough to set comfortably, side by side, two large desks facing the window. In this cubby-area was an empty desk, soon to be Veda's, and at the occupied second desk was the first Cookie she'd been ever met.
Veda gasped when they'd walked through the entry and she saw the squat thing with its wavy blue hair shimmering in the sunlight streaming through the window. Ashat didn't stand to greet them, but eyed the smiling Veda wearily as the HR rep made the introductions and explained how they'd be partnering up and sharing the workload. As Veda sat at her desk for the first time, looking in the drawers at the files already there and checking out the system of organization, the alien sat munching on Skittles from a bowl sitting on the desk with a spoon. It was nearly impossible for Veda to mind the angst radiating from across the office because of her excitement.
She'd only ever seen the aliens on the news, and thought they'd seemed really adorable then. She'd thought the creatures resembled a short person who had merged with an Afghan Hound and then showered in Easter egg dye.
Veda, who thought of herself as shy, despite her colorful wardrobe, finally worked up the courage to start a conversation.
"You sure do love your Skittles."
Her first remark was met with icy silence. Ashat's left eye twitched as Veda continued.
"I'm more of a berry kind of girl. Raspberries and strawberries, and blueberries, et cetera. Nature's candy and all. "
Ashat raised an eyebrow, and Veda realized that her attempt at conversations may have made her come across as condescending.
"No judgement intended," she said, "Just my preference."
"I hate fruit," Ashat muttered. "I hate seeds, peels, juices... too messy. It's disgusting. This," holding up a skittles-filled soup spoon, "is cleaner, more dignifying to eat."
"Do all Cookies speak English so well?"
Ashat grunted before responding, "What did you think? That we wouldn't do research before approaching this planet? Earth had been releasing radio waves into space for a hundred years. We followed it like that children's game... what is it... connect the dots. Ah, it was easy. Your language is primitive, quaint, even. We liked some other languages better, but sensed the wars surrounding those areas would not make it an ideal spot to impose upon. California... a land of vegans living amongst slaughter houses. We chose the right land."
He was referring, of course, to a famous Los Angeles slaughterhouse, which was still operational but, coincidentally, the only surrounding restaurants within a 2-3 mile radius were either vegan or vegetarian - a coincidence noticed by the slaughterhouse workers or the bulk of the fashion industry which also occupied the same area. The reference went completely over Veda's head, being so new.
Not quite sure how to respond to that, she said, "Well, I'm very glad to have you here."
After a few moments she asked, "What do vegetarians and slaughterhouses have anything to do with Californians? I mean, those are everywhere."
Ashat looked at Veda condescendingly and spoke with disdain, "A society that kills the animals for eating but then doesn't eat the animals. The meat is shipped elsewhere. You are too peaceful to eat the animals, despite knowing how to kill them.You kill them for other people to eat, not for yourselves in the immediate area surrounding the killing. You are passive. Passive people are not harmful."
"Plenty of people eat meat in LA."
"Do you eat meat?"
"Actually, no."
Ashat waved his hand dismissively, "Nor me, and we'll get along fine."
Veda didn't follow the logic, figured something key was lost in translation and decided to change the subject. She gestured at the bookshelves, "Most of these are empty. What's the deal with them sectioning us off like this, I wonder?"
Ashat laughed, "Me. I was sick of being gawked at. Humans stare. It is very discomforting."
"Are you male or female?"
At that Ashat sat up very straight, abruptly and stared down Veda and spat, "You are rude to ask."
"I apologize! You're right, that was insensitive. I'm very sorry."
"Silence," Ashat hissed.
The next six hours were uncomfortably, shamefully silent. The southern sunlight drifted in, throwing painted-glass shadows on everything; filling Veda with conflicting emotions. She felt like a social failure, insulting her new coworker on the first day, but also like she'd won the lottery with the beauty of the place.
At the end of the day, as she stood to leave, Ashat spoke to her again. "How do you feel about spiders?"
"They terrify me."
Ashat squinted, "Do you kill them when you see them?"
Veda shook her head, "If I see one, I try to confine it without injuring it, and then I take it outside, find a place in the garden free of other webs, since they eat each other and all, and let it free."
"It," Ashat nodded as this answer was expected, "Fine, see you tomorrow."
Sunday, October 6, 2013
No King
I heard that Stephen King writes stories based off nightmares. I have no idea how factual that is, but I could imagine that's true, at least sometimes.
I could never do that, though. I mean, my nightmares are nothing to write stories about. Literally, the worst dream I can recall from a recent night was that I wore the wrong shirt to the charity volunteer group I take part in every couple of months. It's a bright yellow tee and, because I didn't wear it, I couldn't receive a painted handprint on it, which is like a tally mark for how many times you volunteered.
That's it, that was my nightmare. Sleep is supposed to lower your level of cortisol (stress hormone). But not me while that dream was occuring, nope. That probably rose my cortisol level, embarrassingly.
There are far worse things than having tame nightmares; I know, believe me. I feel lucky that night terrors don't trouble me. I guess I just wish my dreams meant more than the wishy washy textbook regurgitation of the day's happenings with an impossible feat or an exploited minor fear mixed in sporadically.
Friday, October 4, 2013
I wish
I wish I could be happier and more positive in general.
But in a world where every little thing can feel like a fight some days, I'm not happy but I'm also not unhappy. I'm just jaded.
So there.
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