Runway Season Survival

This was a hard season for me as a patternmaker. The design aesthetic developed at a pace pretty challenging to keep up with, since we squeezed the development of an entire full show season into only a couple weeks of preparation. We struggled to remain in control of our mostly dresses and soft woven line as more and more emphasis was placed on hard woven garments.

That said, this season has been viewed as a success by critics, and I really feel it has been a personal success, as well.

Here are some garments that I worked on:

 These are just the ones I made and I enjoyed watching them walk down the Runway. There were plenty more which didn't make the final cut that I was really excited about making, too. I always feel a teeny tiny bit melancholy when I only have a couple pieces walking, but what can I do? Hopefully, I can continue to grow, learn more, and become more useful overall. I have the heart, I'm just waiting for the talent to develop more fully. Until then, though, I'll take pride in the accumulation of all my hard work, even if my labor only bears a small amount of fruit.
xo

Today's Meditation: The War of Internal Progress

Looking back seems to lead to results of which no good ever comes. Usually, nostalgia makes me insecure, opens old wounds, makes me feel [thiscloseto] where I began when I was looking to change. Sometimes, though, the stars align, a blue moon shines down on us, and the rare occurrence happens where you look back at where you once were and can witness the obvious progress you've made.

Today, I had such a delight.

I decided to tally all the work I've done for my employer which happened to make it into their runway show. It is by no means the sum of all the projects I've done for work, but it does show the strengths I've developed over the past year and a half.It shows the responsibilities they trust me with.

I added a sampling to the bottom right of the screen, if you scroll down you can see it.

When every day has felt like a fight within myself to become a better patternmaker, seeing the progress I've made is not only inspiring to continue this internal battle, but it shows me that I am valuable, that the struggle is worth it. I am worthy of working here, of being among these talented people. Of course, I borrow their talent every so often (as they borrow mine). It shows me, though, that I can do this.

Gosh darn it, I might make it, after all.